At Tami Simon’s blog there’s an audio clip of Ram Dass speaking at Naropa University in 1974. From “Love, Service, Devotion, and the Ultimate Surrender”:
Around February of that year I took a very deep acid trip by myself and I went in and in and I went to where I really felt evil and I stood in front of a mirror and became as evil as I could. I went through all my evil. I was really scaring the hell out of myself. Literally. And then I went back and back and back, and I came to a place in me where I just am. I do a lot of crummy things and I do a lot of beautiful things, and I’m neither good nor evil, I just am. There’s good and there’s evil, and I just am. I realize that’s true of everybody…. but I had never had the predicament so I had never had the opportunity to work so intensely with it as this. So from then on I have been liberated from it, except for subtle ways in which it still sneaks in on me… [Transcript by J.P.]
We see in Dass’s testimony an understanding that the nondual union of good and evil is not a doctrine, philosophical argument, or attitude. It’s a sort of knowledge gained through a praxis of suffering and meditation on the shadow and its many strange faces.