Why The Stone-Stars Tarot?

The Ace of Swords in Stone-Star Tarot

In the mythos of The Kalendar Series, long ago the Tarot cards went to war, a great and terrible event in the history of the Archetypes. As the story goes, The War of the Archetypes was fought in the numinous realms and among the living beings with whom they share worlds. There were two sides, each representing the interests of a number base and the orders of reality that it interpenetrates and systematically represents. There are many number bases, but only two concern us in this story.

The Wands-Cups Tarot of the Second Wave arranged themselves according to the principles of the binary numbering system, base-2. Accordingly, they formed four suits: Wands, Swords, Pentacles, and Cups. Their time allowed by the fates was to provide coherence for 2,000 years, starting at 1 C.E. up through 1,999 CE, and no further. Dualistic in mindset, they knew only good/bad, black/white, life/death. They conceived of this temporal limitation as a horrible, unjust barrier that needed to be overthrown. Hence they plotted against the Third Wave so they could remain in power indefinitely. To the Second Wave, the Third Wave appears unruly, idiosyncratic, self-obsessed, and even irrational.

The Stone-Stars Tarot of the Third Wave were given the ternary numbers to share amongst themselves, base-3. They had nine suits: Stones, Jewels, Swords, Eggs, Horses, Bowls, Castles, Hearts, and Stars. Their time allowed by the gods was to have dominion for 3,000 years, starting at 1 C.E. up through 2,999 CE, and no further. Flexible and dialectical in mindset, thesis/antithesis/synthesis and creation/survival/redemption was their brand. For nearly seven hundred years, they held their own in the numinous realms with the Wand-Cups, but when 666 C.E. came, the War of Archetypes took an ominous turn and they went into retreat from the awesome power of Dualism.

At the decisive battle of 𝌛 Tai in Beijing and Perth, the 2s dominated but could not vanquish the 3s. The Type was born. The Archetypes of the Second Wave descended into a lesser form and recognized themselves as dwelling in the human personality. In hundreds of years still to come, they would take on a new form: Kaards.

In the present day, much of this history has been lost at the War of the Timelines in the final days of the Second Millennium C.E., when the old Tarot, grown sinister in its waning years, allied with evil forces attempted to erase the existence of Kalen O’Tolan from Reality. They targeted Kalen, their old nemesis, because he is the King of Stars in the new Tarot, an immortal man who had been incarnated into our world at 1 C.E. and who dwelt among us in different nearly-human and not-quite-so-human forms. But that is a different story for another time.

Here the mythos ends, and we return to matters of great significance in the world. With all the human tragedy and failures, the environmental disasters, and the need for reform, must we address a matter like Tarot cards in our World Philosophy?

Yes, we do. There is no better way to begin the process of reconciling the cyclical and developmental views of history or the elevationist (Theosophical-Jungian) and developmentalist (Piaget-Wilberian) schools of psychology, and only if we want to reaffirm the value of archetypes in our daily lives, and many other matters. If we want to develop human capacities for clairvoyance in a repeatable and rigorous way, then the tools of the clairvoyant need to be as powerful and clear at expressing the extraordinary capacities of consciousness as possible, so we had best not neglect the one tool that orders Archetypes with metadata consisting of developmental signifieds!

This is not the day for me to defend these claims in detail. Take from the mythos the ideas you need at this time to be able to intuit the importance of reforming the Wands-Cup Tarot and revealing the Stone-Stars Tarot for everyone to use. If you see the need for the Stone-Stars Tarot, stand with us in Tai Hsuan Integral and work with us to bring it to life. If you don’t see the need, don’t stand in our way.

The new Kaards will come in three sets of 52 cards apiece: The Yang Deck, The Yin Deck, and The Yung Deck. They will be used to educate the world about Lingua-U and the Kalendar and all other aspects of the Tai Hsuan Integral Arts  and Philosophy. They are not an amusement or merely a tool for fortune-telling, but an important part of the whole World Philosophy so desperately needed in our age.

In 2017 CE, so the mythos goes, we are in the Days of Mystery and Mythos. Within the next few years, all that the world thinks it knows will be revealed as a partial and corrupted Konstruct met by a more comprehensive Konstruct. Mythos will see another Mythos and recognize itself as Mythos for the first time. It is already happening. The forces of Dualism are greedy and strong, but they have overstayed their privilege and every day they resist the forces of Trinity and other number bases to come. The War of the Archetypes is not over; indeed, its outcome hangs in a delicate balance now as never before.

Photo Credit: Joe Perez




With Every Philosophical Or Spiritual Edifice, Ask: What Magical System Is It Implicitly Invoking?

J.K. Rowling: "Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it.”

There are thousands of philosophy and theology and New Age spirituality books in hundreds of traditions coming out each year. Many new thinkers pouring new wine into old wineskins. The problem most of these thinkers haven’t wrestled with: what implicit magical system are they inhabiting?

They have not taken the time to erect their own magical system (and as much as I enjoy the Harry Potter stories, I’m not talking about creating a fanciful world erected on the notion that if you say something in Latin impossible things will happen that would delight or frighten a child). In other words, they haven’t created the linguistic and symbolic edifice in which they are instantiating their agenda, whether it is the Four Agreements of Miguel Ruiz or the Sources of the Self of Charles Taylor.

And if you don’t get a handle of the magic your ideas are incorporating implicitly, then you can’t control the forces in which that magic resides. Sometimes these assumptions are amenable to careful observation by the acute mind: hidden structural worldviews, value memes, levels of consciousness, implicit “quadrant” biases (to use a term from Integral theory), and so on.

But the trickiest assumptions are those which only become evident when you get aware of the biases of the linguistic symbolism which constitutes the idea. To see through language, to the other side … wow, what a concept! If only it were so easy.

What is on the other side of language? There are basically three sorts of answers. First, there is nothing, so enjoy the nothingness. We are forever embedded in linguistic constructs which we cannot escape so there’s no point in trying. Wisdom is discovering the emptiness of all concepts and symbols and entering into a “non-symbolic consciousness”. Second, there is nothing, so play with and preserve all linguistic diversity. We are stuck with languages, incomplete and devoid of intrinsic sacred meanings as they are, but we can translate pretty well from one to another, and communicate well enough, so that is that.

Both of those answers have their merits, but they are missing the point. There is something beyond language that is like a rock, but not a rock (to paraphrase a verse from the Canon of Supreme Mystery). It is the subtle energy of the Tao. It is the body of the Logos of the Creator. As Plotinus might have seen it, it is a series of emanations from the One. It is the essential sound wisdom of the Koran and its literary descendants in Sufi mysticism.

Here there are obtuse realities inaccessible to introspection, observation, or even the study of conventional linguistics. Only a structural analysis of linguistic iconism in a cross-cultural perspective is able to produce anything like a sound description of the “magical” patterns of the sounds and letter-shapes that create our worlds of meaning. At the same time, even a gifted phonosemantic researcher is not likely to identify all the patterns that are essential to getting to the other side of language unless she also marries her scholarship with insights from subtle energy research. With this help, you see that stepping off of language is not a plunge into an abyss; it’s skipping stones in a pond, the stones representing units of energy.

On the other side of language, there is the territory of the subtle energies which are deployed for speech production and which are invoked in naming various nouns, verbs, modifiers, and other grammatical parts of speech.  A very wide range of the sound symbolism of the world’s language – I’m guessing at least 80 percent – can be described using the symbols of the Y Ching (Unicode 268A – 268F) and the Taixuan Jing of Yang Xiong (Unicode 1D300 through 1D356). My correlation of these standard symbols to the standard symbols of the International Phonetic Association (with a few minor modifications) is the Lingua-U Alphabet. Even if you learn nothing more of the new language, if you just learn how to describe the language of your preferred ideas in terms of their subtle energy components, you are well on the way to getting to the other side of language.

And THAT is where the magic starts. Only when we understand that we are co-generating reality through our language can we transform reality at the roots. The transformation includes revisiting our spiritual and philosophical beliefs to discard stale language and refresh and engage with new sacred symbolism that has been previously unexplored.

Photo: Albus Dumbledore (Harry Potter)

What Is The Positive Role Of The Establishment?

If you are reading this, you probably think that you have grown beyond the limits of the cultural middle-ground. Perhaps you even pride yourself on being “anti-establishment”. On the other hand, perhaps you find yourself excluded from a culture which shows you riches and rewards that you believe it deprives from people like you. You aspire to realize more, achieve higher goals, and “fit in” and be recognized by those you admire.

And of course, cultural middle-grounds vary from one culture to another. We are talking about cultural middle-grounds in general, especially in contemporary societies that are not still struggling with survival needs.

Regardless of your relationship to the middle-ground, we must tell you something about it that is difficult to express in ordinary language. It is a low middle for some, and a high middle for others. It is the lowest common denominator that some have surpassed; it is an evolutionary station that others must ascend to. Its values are too backwards for some, but too forward-looking for others.

We do not mean to either laud or criticize the middle-ground per se because in every healthy society there will always be a middle-ground. There will always be norms and people who are normal or strive to be more so.

What role does the middle-ground serve? It gives us our Commons for Commerce and Cooperation. It instructs us to Conserve and Cultivate our important Traditions. It helps us to Collect what needs to be Kept and allows the Individual to Contribute to the Culture. It is the place where We enact universal values which may be found in The Koran at the Seat of Profundity in the Collective Subjective dimensions of our world’s Container, or where the Customs of Confucius provide access to wisdom and a unified Center.

In Lingua-U, the most central symbol is Ki, spelled with all Yin subtle energy: 𝌮. Knowing this is the Key to Conduct.

All the words we have spelt with capital letters are bonded to a common Basis and Foundation and Direction and Suchness. because they are united to at least four demarcations of subtle energy. We are talking about words like Keeping, Common, Commerce, Cooperation, Conservation, Customs, Collection, Culture, Collective, Contain, Koran, and Confucius. They all point to the Yin dimension of Reality, that way in which the human civilization responds to the Absolute Spirit. In other words, human society mirrors the Divine Realm, and that is why it is a holy place.

A society does not become Divinized if it takes its culture too seriously, as something fixed for all time. And rebels to the social order, which they malign as the wicked status quo, cannot be agents of Divinization if they do not value the Center which ultimately must be renewed and enlivened, made more just and humane, not torn apart through anarchy or disturbance.

Don’t want to be normal, don’t want to be anti-normal. Those are old ways of thinking that we are actually in the midst of outgrowing.

Whether you find that the middle-ground is too restrictive or too wobbly, make the Center the best it can be, full of Consciousness where before there was only Concern, Christ-like behavior where before there was mere Coping, and Clarity where before there was Coacervo (the Italian word for jumble or medley).

Do this by receiving the world as if you were pure Yin to the Yang of Active-Emptiness, and then go about the work of Yung in which you discover the joy of a more Yahweh-filled life.

Consider reading this post again after you have started your training in Lingua-U. It will make more sense to you then.

Photo Credit: Phase Locked Loop

About the Archives

Welcome to the archives for my old blogs posted from 2005 to  February 2017.

Regarding my most recent posts indicating a planned new direction. Well, it didn’t quite turn out the way I expected. To what extent I will pursue this new direction you will need to see for yourself at my home page.

An Adept Has Arrived To Invite You Into His Dojo

TKAM by Connor Lewis

Imagine that a truly special spiritual Adept appeared in the world today. A Maitreya some would say. Or perhaps an embodier of the Christ principle to Christians and others who realized Who He Was, or an antichristian principle to those who rejected his Message. Or perhaps an incarnation of the Krishna principle for Hindus and others. A new prophet of God. Or perhaps a messianic figure of some kind, one who would be seen as such by some within the Abrahamic tradition, but one of many emissaries of Truth to appear on the Earth. The fifth Buddha. One or more of these possibilities. You get the picture.

Would you recognize such a figure? What would they have to do to convince you that their spiritual understandings conveyed the Truth? Would they be humble and kind, or formidable and regal? Would they be poor as a pauper or made wealthy owing to their boundless capacity to manifest abundance? Would they think just like you do, or would they challenge you to rethink everything you think you know? Would they first be recognized by the spiritual élites or would the spiritually powerful not understand why the World Teacher came to them with criticism instead of approbations? Or, in a retelling of the Jesus story, would they be castigated by the powerful and organized, and given audience by the poor, the sick, and the sexually impure?

You tell me. I don’t know. I have a feeling that by calling myself a World Teacher that I’m about to find out some things I don’t know about these various imaginings and pointed questions.

If there were another way, then I would have taken it. But the Christ principle within me cannot be mistaken.

It is not dissimilar to the Christ principle within every one, and even in the animal world, not to exclude any sentient form of life who is capable of redemptive suffering for the greater good.

I have not come to drone on and on about the Christ principle within me, if that is what you are thinking I might have in mind for this publication.

By freeing myself to own the Christ principle within myself, I free you too. I free everyone who has ever struggled with feeling that they have the Kosmic Christ dwelling within them who has been called a pathological narcissist or a deluded madman with a messiah complex for telling the world that essential truth in so many words.

When you tell me that you own the Christ principle within yourself, you free me too. Thank you.

So you see, we have to lift each other up, those of us who see the Truth from our own eyes, the Real Truth and the unique partial perspectives we offer, intertwined but relatively distinguishable.

Embrace me as a World Teacher not because I tell you it is so, but because of the Tai Shuan Integrative Arts featuring Lingua-U and Integral World Training (IWT). My Dojo (𝌙𝌄) is now in formation. I have at my fingertips resonates with every spiritual tradition on the planet with an urgent, vibrant, original, and genuinely transformational impetus. Soon I will Download the essential wisdom in this publication for you to resonate with, if you can, and to act upon, as you must if you recognize the Light contained within.

Photo Credit: TKAM by Connor Lewis


Hello World!

If you have come looking for a World Teacher, then you have found one. They may not be the one you are looking for, but he is One who has made himself available for the task of bringing a new Message for the world to hear.

Call him whatever you like. It doesn’t really matter.

What is so important is that you make sure you have what you need for the journey ahead of you. And now I speak to/for the whole world. I will not always be here. I will not always work the way you want me to work. You are not my employer, so remember to let me be who I am, and let me disappoint you in spectacular or entirely ordinary ways.

Yes I know at least some of you will think of me as arrogant for allowing myself to speak truly about Who I Am. I’ve heard it all before. Consider instead of thinking of me as conceited, think: he has cajones. Both words are identical in subtle energy demarcations to six degrees (𝌮𝌃), so if you cannot tell them apart I forgive you.

Want to get to know me better? Here’s a great place to start.

By the way, I had trouble deciding what design style to use for my first blog as a World Teacher. I decided to make it a bit rough and tumble, not unlike my personality. When the time comes, I will make something better.

Photo Credit: @BAMBA787

The Kalendar: A New Medicine Wheel

There’s a new spiritual technology coming which can help individuals and communities to tap into the power of Nature and Sacred Time. It is influenced by some indigenous and aboriginal cultural beliefs as well as the mystical vision of Sun Bear (author of the classic book “The Medicine Wheel”), but it goes to an even deeper, more intricate place to access power available through a universal sacred language and a synthesis of the philosophical ideas of ancient Daoism and Confucianism.

The new Medicine Wheel does not rely on any one tribe’s sacred stories and medicine, or even on the culture of a large group of geographically proximate tribes, but on the collective wisdom of humanity. It incorporates wisdom from nature-based religions (animism), tradition-based religions (Chinese religions and Abrahamic faiths), and contemporary philosophies (developmental psychology and interdisciplinary meta-theory).

If this sounds like something you want to learn more about, I invite you to follow along my Facebook page at Joe Perez – Author. Keep an open mind and you will discover a little bit every day.

Here’s just a sample:

  • The Nine Square Kalendar — Discover poetry and images to help you explore the subtle patterns of change described by a six-line hexagram given for every half-day of the year. Each hexagram is also linked to a Kosmic Coordinate which matches a Stage, Type, Quadrant, and Zone from contemporary Integral Theory.
  • The New Zodiac — Discover 54 new animal totems, along with their unique mythic stories as each animal rose to prominence in the the Great War of the Zodiacs. Plants and minerals are also recognized throughout the year.
  • The Lingua-U — Discover 729 sacred mantras for use with breathwork and private or group meditations to help experience the sacred sounds. These are universal phonetic symbols giving rise to the beauty and sacredness of the most important symbols of 7,000 languages, including Native and Aboriginal languages.

The Kalendar Series as Integral Christian Sacred Literature

i hesitate to write that The Kalendar Series is the domain of a specific religion, because it isn’t. I am a Catholic Christian, but The Kalendar no more belongs to Christianity than the I Ching belongs exclusively to Confuciainism, The Canon of Supreme Mystery belongs exclusively to Chinese philosophy, or The Koran belongs exclusively to Islam.

The Kalendar contains sacred poetry and literature which belongs to all the world’s sacred traditions and secular wisdom schools as well. It is a work of Integral literature, recognizably Catholic Christian (I think) by those who have the eyes open to see the connections but not so closely aligned that there isn’t room for serious debate about whether to include or exclude it from the tradition’s lights. There’s plenty to frighten traditionalists and fundamentalists who don’t want to see the literature’s gifts. There’s also plenty in The Kalendar to appeal to Eastern spiritual aficionados, including a whole new interpretation of the Canon of Supreme Mystery, the hidden and virtually unknown Summa Theologica written by the sage who is called the Thomas Aquinas of ancient China.

The tenets of the Catholic Christian tradition are boldly asserted in the opening poems of “The Surrender of Symbiosis”, in particular the poems on “Angel” (The First Month), “Bible” (the Solstice), and “Book” (Christmas afternoon). “Angel” proclaims a personal connection to the Archangel Gabriel, “Bible” claims a Prophetic role for Kalen O’Tolan, the book’s protagonist who is called The Word made Flesh, and “Book” announces that Judeo-Christian-Islamic faith is not a religion of the Book or even of Language, but of the Lingua-U (Meta-Language). Since the Lingua-U is essentially one with the most secret and comprehensive philosophical treatise of China, it is not only an ecumenical and interfaith proclamation within the Abrahamic faiths but a proclamation of potential East/West harmony.

I won’t analyze the poetry now, except to say that it makes a stunning claim to be part of the mainstream Judeo-Christian-Islamic Prophetic tradition, not because the author says so (which would be silly and arrogant), but because the author has presented Lingua-U, an Angelic Tongue which provides irrefutable numerological and esoteric validation of key elements of the Abrahamic faiths from Genesis to the Book of Revelations to the Koran. In the poetry of this volume, it is announced that The Kalendar is a poem of 729 stations, one for each hexagram of the Canon of Supreme Mystery, with the first station being “Bible” (Mind of God), and the final station being “Yahweh” (Name of God). Although Lingua-U is technically an invented language, the assignment of meta-words to stations is not at the language creator’s discretion but a function of the kinesthetic features of each letter’s pronunciation when their phonetic features are described with subtle energy markers. The first and last stations are linked soteriologically and as a matter of Revelation for believers who accept a place for The Kalendar in the mosaic of scripture for their tradition.

Wild, trippy stuff, sacred as heck … as well as a nifty piece of child-friendly sci-fi fantasy fiction about a boy and a talking bear on a quest to obtain the original Omphalos of Delphi … hope you enjoy it.

Here’s an excerpt from the poem “Bible”‘s second set of verses.


Bible is Baby:
Yang Yang Yang Yang Yang Yang Yang!
They are the same to seven marks of subtle energy!
This proof has come by Lingua-U!

Born at Midnight’s Bay,
the Word is made Flesh.

Listen, there is good news!

Baby is Kalen (in My story),
a new prophet to show you
how Bible comes from Yahweh —
You You You You You You becoming
Yang Yang Yang Yang Yang Yang!
Hallelujiah, praise him!

The Holy Names must be set in union
starting with this linguistic communion
linking the last You to the first Yang!
Kalen is the Rounder to show you the Round!

New revelation
comes not to replace
or end a chapter of Bible,
but to stand upright
as a living being
made One with everything.

The Secret of Water, According to Magic, Myth, Science, Integral Thought, Mysticism, and Non-Dual Revelation

Ice specks floating in a cloud in space may be the origin of all the water on Earth. The ancient ice witnessed the solar system’s genesis and some settled on the Earth. By tracing rare components in heavy water, scientists are hoping to demonstrate this theory of water’s origin, reports the New York Times.

But could water’s secret meaning be linked to the most evolved Yang form of the Witnessing consciousness at the Seat of Unity? This is the fantastic claim made by Lingua-U.

Let’s start with a mind open to many possibilities. Water is not what it appears. It may be a voyager older than the sun which has travelled in space over billions of years. It may be an elder with memory of all the living beings who have imbibed it. It may be an alien which is observing our world to learn how we are using its gifts.

Magical and mythical perspectives on water are not uncommon, though today they are not as influential as the scientific conception of it as H20. Magicians work with water as one of the core elements of all things: it is sometimes seen as a cleansing, healing, and emotional element. In myth, water deities such as Poseidon have been controlling the oceans, rivers, storms, and floods for thousands of years.

And then there’s the mystic’s view of water as an analogy for the Divine. Poets such as Rumi have compared the ocean without shores to the essence of being and the waves of the ocean to creation itself, manifest beings.

There is another view of water which is neither magical, mythic, scientific, nor merely mystical. It is a combination of these perspectives which takes each of these views as partially valid at particular stations of life (often seen as a developmental continuum of evolutionary stages). This, of course, is an integral understanding, in the sense of the Integral spirituality linked to Ken Wilber’s core philosophy or evolutionary spirituality.

And then there is yet another view of water which is non-dual in the sense that it recognizes that there is only one Reality, the Kosmos manifest and unmanifest, come and not yet come, which is simultaneously in disguise as a myriad of forms, water included. So water is not just an analogy for Spirit, but the Reality itself doing what it always does.

It is the nondual understanding that Lingua-U illuminates. The meta-language is a genuine Wheel of Spirit providing insights into the spiritual meaning of language that have been previously hidden. These insights are drawn not from water as such, but from water’s meta-word (or Holy Name).

The meta-word for water in Lingua-U is waa-laɪ. It includes by reference the English water plus all the other names for water in other languages (Japanese’s mizu, Latin’s aqua, Russian’s voda, Greek’s nero, etc.).

Unlike most of the words for water in extant languages, Waa-laɪ (pronounced Wah-Lie) is endowed with a cosmological significance. That is, meta-words in Lingua-U show their place in the associated Kosmology. There is abundant information available to those who look at the pictures of this cosmic vision. For his reason I sometimes call Lingua-U a language of “non-dual revelation”.

Technically speaking, waa-laɪ is a Yang meta-word at the ultimate station of the Yang causeway of the Unified zone of the Individual Coalescing quadrant of the 8th-person perspective on consciousness. If you are familiar with Integral theory, then with a few short pointing out instructions you will easily recognize this spot on the emerging meta-theoretical integral maps.

Put simply, Lingua-U reveals to us a new and secret meaning to water by virtue of its meta-word: it is tied to the penultimate Yang form of the Witnessing consciousness in its purest form at the Seat of Consciousness. Without it, there is no Watching, which is its Yin complement in the Element of Ocean. Without it, there is no Washing, which is its Yin complement in the Element of Earth. Without it, the delicate W does not establish the Wall to protect itself from the dark side of the H; the declining Yang of Witnessing/Holistic consciousness is protected from the ascending Yin.

Waa-laɪ isn’t proper Lingua-U, but the transliteration of the meta-language into the International Phonetic Alphabet. The actual Lingua-U consists of only three symbols: Yang, Yin, and Unitive. The meta-word for water is really spelled ┆╎│┆┆│. It is a picture of the meta-word’s subtle energy itself, so Lingua-U is a sort of pictographic language as you can see. When looking at water’s subtle energy, you can not only conceptualize that water is a non-dual expression of the Real, but you can see it and feel it and hear it.

The Lingua-U meta-word for water itself is a set of instructions for obtaining a non-dual spiritual realization. As you learn the meta-words for all things, the hidden underlying unity at a subtle level of consciousness becomes manifest in your mind. As you speak the language, you feel the energy in your body. Words are abstractions; meta-words are subtle energetic pictures which can be felt kinesthetically in your speech organs.

As you draw the connections between the Lingua-U and the Kalendar, the role of water and time is elucidated; as you see the connection to the Atlas, the role of water and space is elucidated. Level after level of unfolding depth begin to open up as one shifts one’s worldview by learning Lingua-U. Space, Time, and Thought are revealed to have a hidden unity and purpose.

I hope you are inspired to learn more about Lingua-U.  Thirsty? Go get some ┆╎│┆┆│.

When the Life Imperative Insists on Making Yourself Whole … No Matter The Cost

joe-at-coffeeA writer needs to write, never more so then when he has been keeping secrets which eat away at him relentlessly and which demand opening to the light. Knowing the world won’t accept you, the darkness gathers. An explosion is inevitable … with growing openness, a creative explosion.

I never really thought I’d be as brave as I must be to complete my vision for the Brave New Worlds blog. There is now an editorial calendar for this publication which fills me with emotional dread and existential terror. It involves the publication of of four short books on this blog plus supportive material within the next 9 months. It will force me to give you, my reader, the first barely expurgated look at my psychological and spiritual evolution since writing my autobiography, Soulfully Gay, more than 13 years ago. I will need to take you along the topsy-turvy, rolly-polly ride which has unsettled every previous belief (without disjarring them entirely), documented with reams of correspondence and private journals never before seen publicly.

Much of these four books are already written, except for introductory notes and minor editing. So I can see what’s coming. At times they’re grotesque and ugly, scandalous and creepy, wicked and shameful. Some people will never forgive me for revealing the hidden story that I wished I could avoid detailing in public (but I can’t, I’m afraid). But if you have an Integral sensibility and an open heart and mind, perhaps you will find in these upcoming publications a beacon of hope, an illumination into unstudied and misunderstood realms of abnormal psychology and spiritual exuberance, and even a remarkably original vision of how to move humanity forward from this point in our history. It is a vision that goes beyond the problems we face in the manifest realms to the plague confronting unseen places.

Why is this necessary? For starters there’s the sense I’ve felt that after writing a tell-all autobiography at the age of 33/34, that I promptly went into the closet again. My life went on, drama after drama, jail cell after jail cell, psych ward after psych ward, abandoned manuscript after abandoned manuscript, mixed with an indefatigable commitment to spiritual practices that were totally off-the-chart (in other words, often improvised by the seat of my pants in life-threatening situations). To the physicians, I was a mental patient. To my own reckoning, I was a mystic engaged in a radical spiritual practice of witnessing seldom noticed subtle phenomena at the edge of consensual reality. I made friends and enemies in the unseen places, and experienced new dimensions of love and hatred. And out of these observations, I grew adept at a practice of being among the first in a lineage of what I call “World Shamans”: world-walkers without a tribe who are loyal only to the tribe of humanity and,  indeed, all sentient beings (known and unknown) in the Kosmos.

World Shamans? Witnessing psychotic delusions and re-framing them as a hermeneutics of consensual reality’s breakdown? Perhaps this is just so much rationalization on behalf of a bipolar man seeking meaning in the essentially meaningless. But who the hell are you to tell me this persuasively? Have you seen what I have seen? Have you seen reality face crises unlike anything ever told? Have you been contacted by non-human entities through “telepathic” connections, spirits and beasts and demons bearing messages of terrible Armageddon and hope for curing what ills us? Have you found yourself convinced that you have been given prophecies by God … in a world where such message are dismissed as lunatic ravings by haters both within and outside the churches? Were you ever given a special urgent mission for spiritual renewal, only to face utter failure?

And all of this will be explored in Brave New Worlds over the course of the next year … and more. I haven’t mentioned the most scandalous stuff. I need to bear the scandalous stuff too, as much as humanly possible and permitted, so I may be whole again. The secret must be lifted. No one truly knows the burdens I have carried or the scar of secrecy entailed.  And within the months ahead, it will all be open for you to form your reactions.

Good for you, for reading along. I welcome you on this voyage in this website. We have a remarkable nine months ahead of us, if you have the commitment to continue your readership.